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[thahappycamper]

Sometimes, the negative comments or the mean things that your family members have said or done to you might be because they care about yours and want you to become a better person.

When I care about someone, I will continue to talk to them very loudly. When I stop talking to a person, it is a sign that I don't care if they are dead or alive.

That is true bong but their brand of "caring" fucked it up for me lolz. I rather they not care, its not worth the trouble. Trust me, I don't exaggerate man. These ppl are stranger than you think. They are from a different time, different country, different way of thinking. I'm sure you know what I mean. If they cared about me they wouldn't watch me suffer through the years while they travel to cambodia 3 times a year and buy nice cars, brand new house, and all the other stuff. I watched them do this over the years while I was moping about my step dad's death and the fact that I won't be attending University like other kids my age. I understand that you have to forgive people for their ignorance but a guy can only take so much.

I won't be seeing them ever and honestly, I can't wait to move even further away and doing even better than I am now. I can't wait . I can't wait to see how they are doing 20 years from now while I basked in the sun with my millions, hahahhahhaha.

 

[tinaboo]

Beautiful written paoun Tina. Thanks for sharing.

thank you bong marvelous ^-^

 

[Rei]

I did not know. I know you are sensitive type of guy, lolz. I'm sorry you had to experience the bad. It's not something to be joking about. Have you considered smoking weed to calm yo ass down? A little bit won't hurt man and your brain has already matured. You can also try to find a better hobby besides Destiny, its too intense man. Destiny aint for me bro, it makes me dizzy playing it. Have you tried doing new things as of late?

When I get to the point of killing someone, I turn to porn. Have you tried porn? Hitting the heavy bags does it too. Honestly, aint nothing gonna take your pain away bro, but you can cope. Lashing out works too. Lash out at me bro. I'll be your whipping boy. Hey it turns me on. hahaha Tell me how bad I am and all my issues. hahahahha I've been a naughty boy, yes sir.

Seriously, death sucks man. Especially when it happens to good people. I think you are deeply sadden by the fact that she died so young and the nature of her death. It changed you, that's for sure. Take it from me, life is a daily battle between the negative and the positive. Each choice you make can lead to either one or the other. Choose wisely.

Btw, there's nothing wrong with grief and mourning.

Just when I thought life had been so great, things came down crashing at once. In just one year, I've dealt with so many deaths than all the years combined in my entire life. Delivering that unexpected death news to my parents was the most painful thing, and receiving that cold call myself at 2AM still haunt me til now.

I had 30 years full of joy and happiness in life and now, I will spend the remaining half of my life finding that meaning back. You are right, it changed me.

 

[Rei]

My grandmother died in 2012, i still mourn her till this day, my grandfather past away this year, my uncle as well, and recently my best friend who i love like a sister. my slowly breaking down, but i'm trying so hard to strong. i miss them. :/

I'm sure two years feel like just a few weeks ago, and missing your loved ones, will never be an easy feeling to deal with. You seem like a strong person, and all the unfortunate happenings will only make you stronger. =]

 

[tinaboo]

I'm sure two years feel like just a few weeks ago, and missing your loved ones, will never be an easy feeling to deal with. You seem like a strong person, and all the unfortunate happenings will only make you stronger. =]

I try to be strong, it have to be for my mom who's depends alot on me. i still have 10 other siblings that i have to look after. i guess its life. but yea i miss her dearly she helped me through alot when i stressed.