Visit The Cemetery Today, Brought Back So Much Memories...

[tinaboo]

I wrote this after my visit to the cemetery, it brought back so much memories.
I tried to express exactly how I was feeling, hopefully you guys like it.



Tears are falling my hearts in crumbles,

Rolling down my cheeks, a silent tumble.

Staring at the headstone where you lay in peace,

My tears keep falling. I could barely see.

As memories flood back, to when we first met,

A cherished moment I would never forget.


Looking up at the sky with blood shot eyes,

The pain is unbearable, I cannot deny.

I wish you were here, a little longer with me,

But wishing is like a dream that could never be,


I remember the bond, our friendship and trust,

You were everything to me, and that was enough.

You were my anchor, my shield, you were my only protection,

Now I’m left alone with no sense of direction.


I’m so lost, I’m afraid, I can’t do this without you,

But I’ll try my best it’s the least I could do.

I’ll try to live on with just the memories of you,

And make you proud of me like I said I would do.


Please rest peacefully in your paradise slumber,

I’ll be good and make it a ride to remember.

In this; I promise you, I’ll stay happy,

I’ll try not to cry, I’ll try to laugh freely

Because I know in spirit, you’re right here beside me.


It’s time to leave, I’ll be back tomorrow,

To share my pain, my heartaches and sorrow.

But rest assure, I have happy moments too,

At least the one I get to share with you.

Orginally by me,
Tinaboo​

 

[PkaLotus]

Thank you so much for sharing with us, TinaBoo dear

 

[thahappycamper]

Honestly, I miss my family dearly, who they once were. I don't like who they are now. They have some nice things and for the past 10 years, I experience them being very mean to me. You all know by now, I am deeply hurt by it. Reading something like this makes me touchy. There's almost nothing worse than a broken family. My grandma's still alive; she won't be for long. I miss her and her khmer cooking. Without her, I would have never been introduced to khmer foods. She's was SANE that was the best part. The Khmer Rouge didn't affect her like it did her kids. Her strength was amazing. Her family was all she had and she's able to overlook at their flaws. No matter how stupid my aunts and uncles were, they were still her kids. Life is so tough and you have to be so strong. Some days, I know I don't know everything and i"m just winging it. All in all, I like your sentiment, tinaboo. Keep being happy and being strong.

 

[tinaboo]

Thank you so much for sharing with us, TinaBoo dear

thank you for reading it ^-^

 

[tinaboo]

Honestly, I miss my family dearly, who they once were. I don't like who they are now. They have some nice things and for the past 10 years, I experience them being very mean to me. You all know by now, I am deeply hurt by it. Reading something like this makes me touchy. There's almost nothing worse than a broken family. My grandma's still alive; she won't be for long. I miss her and her khmer cooking. Without her, I would have never been introduced to khmer foods. She's was SANE that was the best part. The Khmer Rouge didn't affect her like it did her kids. Her strength was amazing. Her family was all she had and she's able to overlook at their flaws. No matter how stupid my aunts and uncles were, they were still her kids. Life is so tough and you have to be so strong. Some days, I know I don't know everything and i"m just winging it. All in all, I like your sentiment, tinaboo. Keep being happy and being strong.

there's alot of ups and down in family. but thanks and i'll try ^-^

 

[Rei]

That's a beautifully written poem, Tina. I've been to the cemetery over 150x in the last year alone and can feel every line of it. Fortunately, our local cemeteries are well taken of, and I've met many nice people with similar experiences. I've been told that they are at a better place, and I'd like to believe so. It's just that the ones alive, us, have to go through more life sufferring.

 

[tinaboo]

That's a beautifully written poem, Tina. I've been to the cemetery over 150x in the last year alone and can feel every line of it. Fortunately, our local cemeteries are well taken of, and I've met many nice people with similar experiences. I've been told that they are at a better place, and I'd like to believe so. It's just that the ones alive, us, have to go through more life sufferring.

Thanks rei i believe that too, those who passed no longer have to go through any pain or suffering unlike us who still live on and still have much more to live through, pain, loss, love , happiness, and of course sadness.

 

[Bluebird]

That's a beautifully written poem, Tina. I've been to the cemetery over 150x in the last year alone and can feel every line of it. Fortunately, our local cemeteries are well taken of, and I've met many nice people with similar experiences. I've been told that they are at a better place, and I'd like to believe so. It's just that the ones alive, us, have to go through more life sufferring.

We're all sinners. Life's suffering, stress, sadness, and happiness will continue till the due's fully paid.
It's inevitable that the better place's awaiting us in the foreseeable horizon.

 

[thahappycamper]

I believe in some sort of afterlife, when I cremated my dad, I swear his spirit came back one last time. Everyone at home felt a inner coldness and that same night, my uncle had a dream about him and told him to take care of his tools. lolz

Why am I so angry at my people? Arrgg....

Bluebird, the only thing inevitable is our romping.

 

[Bluebird]

I believe in some sort of afterlife, when I cremated my dad, I swear his spirit came back one last time. Everyone at home felt a inner coldness and that same night, my uncle had a dream about him and told him to take care of his tools. lolz

Why am I so angry at my people? Arrgg....

Bluebird, the only thing inevitable is our romping.

It should be more than just romping, Happy.
Yeah, there's certainly some kind of afterlife if you believe in spirit.
Especially, when the dead one was very close to you.

 

[Rei]

Thanks rei i believe that too, those who passed no longer have to go through any pain or suffering unlike us who still live on and still have much more to live through, pain, loss, love , happiness, and of course sadness.

Not a problem Tina. How long ago did you have to deal with this loss?

 

[Rei]

Honestly, I miss my family dearly, who they once were. I don't like who they are now. They have some nice things and for the past 10 years, I experience them being very mean to me. You all know by now, I am deeply hurt by it. Reading something like this makes me touchy. There's almost nothing worse than a broken family. My grandma's still alive; she won't be for long. I miss her and her khmer cooking. Without her, I would have never been introduced to khmer foods. She's was SANE that was the best part. The Khmer Rouge didn't affect her like it did her kids. Her strength was amazing. Her family was all she had and she's able to overlook at their flaws. No matter how stupid my aunts and uncles were, they were still her kids. Life is so tough and you have to be so strong. Some days, I know I don't know everything and i"m just winging it. All in all, I like your sentiment, tinaboo. Keep being happy and being strong.

I know you have left your family for years but you still have the choice to meet up with your grandma. Remember, you have the time and she doesn't.

 

[Rei]

We're all sinners. Life's suffering, stress, sadness, and happiness will continue till the due's fully paid.
It's inevitable that the better place's awaiting us in the foreseeable horizon.

It is, life can be full of anger -- but only if we all can turn that flame into something positive instead.

 

[thahappycamper]

I know you have left your family for years but you still have the choice to meet up with your grandma. Remember, you have the time and she doesn't.

She lives with them and she's loves the lifestyle of living in a big house with all the amenities. I love my grandma dearly but she's had some wrongdoings but I harbor no resentment towards her. BTW, w/b. Miss ya bro. Sorry I irk you, I'm trying to understand you actually.

Things are so bad, I can't just go there, I haven't told you everything. The last time I went there, it got pretty ugly. I had to put down my dog I left in their care because of them They abused my dog. I threw a big ass rock at my uncle's truck several times, basically causing good damage. I won't be going back.

Just realized yesterday my cousins just bought a house. It irked me. I don't like him. He was a complete douche to me, far worst than I ever been to him.

 

[Rei]

She lives with them and she's loves the lifestyle of living in a big house with all the amenities. I love my grandma dearly but she's had some wrongdoings but I harbor no resentment towards her. BTW, w/b. Miss ya bro. Sorry I irk you, I'm trying to understand you actually.

Things are so bad, I can't just go there, I haven't told you everything. The last time I went there, it got pretty ugly. I had to put down my dog I left in their care because of them They abused my dog. I threw a big ass rock at my uncle's truck several times, basically causing good damage. I won't be going back.

Just realized yesterday my cousins just bought a house. It irked me. I don't like him. He was a complete douche to me, far worst than I ever been to him.

It's great to know that I'm still being missed heh. I know that you like to push people's limit and see how far you can go. This month, I'm at my weakest in dealing with my sister's first year since her death. I've been taking Destiny as my meds from thinking too much.

Animal abusing is cruel, I would've done something similar. The root of many kids' problem comes from broken family so I've understood why you've been feeling that way. I like to look at the bigger scope of things -- it makes me think that my problem is miniscule compared to others.

 

[thahappycamper]

It's great to know that I'm still being missed heh. I know that you like to push people's limit and see how far you can go. This month, I'm at my weakest in dealing with my sister's first year since her death. I've been taking Destiny as my meds from thinking too much.

Animal abusing is cruel, I would've done something similar. The root of many kids' problem comes from broken family so I've understood why you've been feeling that way. I like to look at the bigger scope of things -- it makes me think that my problem is miniscule compared to others.

What they did to my dog makes me ..... I never will forget it.

 

[thahappycamper]

It's great to know that I'm still being missed heh. I know that you like to push people's limit and see how far you can go. This month, I'm at my weakest in dealing with my sister's first year since her death. I've been taking Destiny as my meds from thinking too much.

Animal abusing is cruel, I would've done something similar. The root of many kids' problem comes from broken family so I've understood why you feel that way. I like to look at the bigger scope of things -- it makes me think that my problem is miniscule compared to others.

I did not know. I know you are sensitive type of guy, lolz. I'm sorry you had to experience the bad. It's not something to be joking about. Have you considered smoking weed to calm yo ass down? A little bit won't hurt man and your brain has already matured. You can also try to find a better hobby besides Destiny, its too intense man. Destiny aint for me bro, it makes me dizzy playing it. Have you tried doing new things as of late?

When I get to the point of killing someone, I turn to porn. Have you tried porn? Hitting the heavy bags does it too. Honestly, aint nothing gonna take your pain away bro, but you can cope. Lashing out works too. Lash out at me bro. I'll be your whipping boy. Hey it turns me on. hahaha Tell me how bad I am and all my issues. hahahahha I've been a naughty boy, yes sir.

Seriously, death sucks man. Especially when it happens to good people. I think you are deeply sadden by the fact that she died so young and the nature of her death. It changed you, that's for sure. Take it from me, life is a daily battle between the negative and the positive. Each choice you make can lead to either one or the other. Choose wisely.

Btw, there's nothing wrong with grief and mourning.

 

[tinaboo]

Not a problem Tina. How long ago did you have to deal with this loss?

My grandmother died in 2012, i still mourn her till this day, my grandfather past away this year, my uncle as well, and recently my best friend who i love like a sister. my slowly breaking down, but i'm trying so hard to strong. i miss them. :/

 

[Marvelous]

Beautiful written paoun Tina. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Marvelous]

Honestly, I miss my family dearly, who they once were. I don't like who they are now. They have some nice things and for the past 10 years, I experience them being very mean to me. You all know by now, I am deeply hurt by it. Reading something like this makes me touchy. There's almost nothing worse than a broken family. My grandma's still alive; she won't be for long. I miss her and her khmer cooking. Without her, I would have never been introduced to khmer foods. She's was SANE that was the best part. The Khmer Rouge didn't affect her like it did her kids. Her strength was amazing. Her family was all she had and she's able to overlook at their flaws. No matter how stupid my aunts and uncles were, they were still her kids. Life is so tough and you have to be so strong. Some days, I know I don't know everything and i"m just winging it. All in all, I like your sentiment, tinaboo. Keep being happy and being strong.

Sometimes, the negative comments or the mean things that your family members have said or done to you might be because they care about yours and want you to become a better person.

When I care about someone, I will continue to talk to them very loudly. When I stop talking to a person, it is a sign that I don't care if they are dead or alive.